Raw re-visited

I have been on a high-raw diet for 6 weeks now.  I must admit that the changes are immediate and profound.  The sudden sense of mental clarity is astounding:  7 weeks ago I struggled against afternoon fatigue constantly.  I had dark circles under my eyes and a distinctly puffy jawline.  Not to mention my hips…But after six weeks of raw-all-day followed by a lightly cooked supper I feel distinctly better.

I see it in photos:  that is partly what convinced me that a change was due, the dark circles under my eyes.   Now, my eyes are brighter, they feel more open, I see more,  my mind is sharper and I am definitely more loving and more tolerant.  I see already that people respond to me differently.  I guess that love is always reciprocated, even unconsciously.

The other thing I find interesting is that this is the first time in my life I don’t feel like an imposter using the words joyful, or radiant, or peaceful.  Before, I was calm on the outside and tormented on the inside. Like many people, I soldiered through the work day only to turn to jelly at home.  Even when I changed jobs and began working with massage, a job I love and never intend to leave, I still found myself struggling to maintain inner harmony.  No matter how much yoga I did – and I used to practice 6 days per week – I still found myself flaring up in anger at small things, or suffocating in a silence of shyness at crucial moments.  But then, this long, long path I walk has led me here, to this place of joy, of peace, of certainty that what I am doing is the right thing to do, the right thing for me, for the people around me and for the world.  And so the anxiety gap narrows, become but a crack, and I skip merrily across it, light as air, knowing that what I believe and what I do are now one and the same.